After ending a toxic, long-term relationship in early 2020, I was forced to look inward and really decide how I was going to proceed with this next chapter of my life. What began as simply writing down my feelings, transformed in to a full blown memoir of my life.
Reflecting on those difficult years allowed me to understand myself better. I see, now, why I did what I did. Why I made such poor romantic decisions, and how I ended up where I am – a single, happy, 30something ready to conquer whatever else life throws at her.
That being said, pandemic dating has been interesting. Imagine being trapped in a horrible relationship, only to break free two months before another plague? The Universe really wanted me to do some soul searching.
Now, though, a couple years in to this new normal, I’ve begun to accept my true self. I’m more conscious of the choices I make, and I try to be more self aware. (Which just means, I’m not in denial anymore about my horrible taste in men)
I never would have expected I’d be posting my deepest secrets online for strangers to read. But through my healing I realized, maybe something I went through in the early chapters could help someone else who’s struggling? Maybe people will relate to the the mis-adventures of my new single life, and could find as much humour in it as I do?
At the very least, this blog has become an artistic expression of how far I’ve come in my life. Thanks for joining me on this journey.
– LL30s
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